Siddharth Abbineni

You know what I hate? New Year’s resolutions. I make them every year and repent making them throughout the year; not because it’s hard to stick by them but because it pisses me off that I never follow them. You know what I hate more? New Decade’s resolutions. It’s a whole decade of hell.

I decided not to make any this time and I hope to be a happy person throughout. BUT..

You know what I hate even more? No, not New Century’s resolutions; but challenges from friends, to make a resolution and stick with it. There were many really, however there was one which I thought I really should look into. This blog. I somehow get the sense that I am falling into the ‘resolution hell’ again but my friend who requested to be left anonymous and insisted I called him the G-Man, said he would help me out with this. He also insisted I publicly announce this challenge.

I keep learning and discovering new stuff every day, and I used to share some of the stuff here and they got a decent response from the web. One thing that really got me to consider was the number of hits this blog still gets everyday even though the last post was in February 2010. I am learning a lot more nowadays so I won’t be running out of content; I just need to get it up as soon as possible before it goes stale.

Traffic in the last 24 hours

The G-Man’s challenge was easy; or so I thought. We all know how big of an asshole the real G-Man is, this G-Man is no exception. He had a couple of clauses. First, the obvious one, I need to keep writing on a regular basis. The second one on the other hand still confuses me. I have to take the geekiest experience in the past decade and write it in a completely different context while maintaining the main storyline intact. Huh? I assume something on these lines: If I have to say “My computer’s processor died”, I should say “My friend is brain dead now.” He says it will improve my writing skills. Really?

Anyway, if you have gone through my posts in the past, you know what the story is. I just have to add spice to it. I am usually too lazy to accept such a challenge but let’s just say the stakes are really high and I have to.

Alright, it is time to sleep and I have till this weekend to finish this. If someone is reading this, I would appreciate some suggestions/tips.

It has been almost a full year since I made the shift to Vista from the trusty old XP. I am now officially bored of Vista’s default aero scheme. After an hour of googling and testing various themes and skins, here is my new desktop.

1. Transblack FINAL v1, Visual Style for Vista.
2. Darkwood wallpaper pack
3. VistaGlazz, for patching Vista theme files which enables custom themes.
4. SimpleX 0.33, Winamp skin. (“Wow! Its really dark!” Color theme)

Also if you are feeling “I want something more sexier!”, you can try this winamp skin, just make sure you enable Desktop Alpha Bending in Winamp reflexion by ~sXnc | See the Last 2 images in the gallery.

Beat this!! lol!!

I had to be a hippie for 3 hours today. Yes, a tree hugging, smoke hating hippie. Reason? Environmental Sciences examination. Although I didn’t study a single word even though I had one full day to study, which I spent chatting and attending functions, I was pretty confident I was gonna do well. It is just writing about what you hate to do the most. Childs play. As far as I know it is easier to write about what we hate the most than what we like the most. Well anyway, being a diehard Petrol head, a racing junkie and a devotee to Lord E.T. Cartman (The Greatest hippie hater), I set off writing about why we shouldn’t drive for pleasure as it produces CO2 and uses up fossil fuels. It was so involving I didn’t deviate from the exam for even 5 minutes, usually when I write other exams I wander off into day dreams and then after a while when I realize I am supposed to write, I come back to writing. None of that happened today though, I was happily writing what I never did or will never do.

After 3 hours of exhaustive writing, my right hand started quivering in pain. Never had I put so much hatred into the paper. Every sentence in that paper is something I would never do. Then I started thinking what is the use of the exam I just wrote? Well, nothing, it just made me want to drive more, rip on the engine a lot more and to never let the engines rev less than 4K RPM. Yes some of you may disagree, so heres something for you _|_ ;)

Cartman: I hate hippies! I mean, the way they always talk about “protectin’ the earth” and then drive around in cars that get poor gas mileage and wear those stupid bracelets – I hate ‘em! I wanna kick ‘em in the nuts!

tHeSiD: I hate hippies! I mean, the way they always talk about “protectin’ the earth” and then drive around in cars that get poor gas mileage and wear those stupid bracelets – I hate ‘em! I wanna kick ‘em in the nuts!

Finally found the patience to upgrade my template to the new one. Its all nice, easily arrangeable modules but in the end had to edit html to get the header right. But I like the blog archive on the right.

Yes, I know, its like the Porsche 911, same design over and over again! but its new!! :P

Cartman: You guys! I got it! It seriously! It’s the greatest picture ever! Oh my God!
Stan: What’cha do to Butters this time?
Cartman: Ihit was genius! I waited ’til he was totally asleep, right? And then I got my camera, and I pulled down his pants, and then I took a picture of his wiener in my mouth!
Kyle: Dude!
Cartman: IknowIknow, check it out, look. I got his whole wiener in my mouth, see? Heheh. Oh man, I got him good!
Stan: Dude, how is putting Butters’ wiener in his mouth getting him?
Cartman: Because that makes Butters gay now!

A few days ago, I wanted to write an entry on “The Thin line between Love and Hate”. I was that screwed, just to give a taste of what it was like; here is a part of it.

When we love something and we can’t get it, we are in a bad situation. There are many reasons why we can’t get what we want, maybe it is with someone else or it is just not possible to get it coz of the million factors involved in the getting it. Whatever the reason, it is time we realize.

I was literally crumpling. I had no idea why, I couldn’t get my thoughts together, what I wanted to do, what I had to do, all that. I was completely messed up.

One night, I was discussing all that with Virat, and was telling him how messed up I was. Then all of a sudden a hippie friend of mine (a good guy, but annoying) started his normal routine of pissing me off by pleading me to death until I fulfilled his request. I was bummed already, and above that, the hippie keeps pestering me. Then after all this Vik realized I became too soft, I wasn’t the Cartman I was before and that I am being too kind and too nice to people. I was shocked myself when I realized that it was the truth. I became too soft.

He then started to tease me, by putting up status messages like “Cartman the new Hippie Slave!!!”, funny chat that was. It was the moment that a switch in me flicked and the Cartman in me woke up again. Then its that feeling of realizing how stupid you have been all the time, that you didn’t deserve to be in the situation you were in. Everything came back. I never believed in people changing in instants, but, that moment proved that I was wrong. My whole mindset changed, I was more rational than emotional, more cunning than naïve. Not actually a change, but being back to what I am!

The next day onwards everything was different, I felt like was one pedestal over everyone, that egoistic feel was amazing. I am back on track and the Cartman-ish feeling is great. The whole reason I was messed up became my main objective, sort of. I’m enjoying every second of it. I can’t stop smiling, at all, even if I’m surrounded by people, whenever I think about what I’ve decided to do, that evil smile comes up on my face and its not controllable. Even when I’m writing this, I’m smiling. I’m now so confident, I didn’t rewrite a single word of this blog, this is a continuous write, no going back and checking for if I was wrong and all. Its all proof I need to believe I’m stronger.

Cartman:God has told me how to make 10 million dollars!
Stan:how?
Cartman: Boy band.
Stan: Boy band?
Cartman: Boy band.
Stan: I’m not being part of any faggy boy band.
Cartman: Theres nothing faggy about 10 million dollars, asshole.

The wordings in the song Dreaming by System of a Down, clearly explain the state I am in

I’m saying:
You
You went beyond
And you lost it all
Why did you go there?
From beyond you saw it all
Why did you go there?

She lost her mind
Someone kicked her into the back of the line
She lost her head

I’m thinking:
Dreaming of screaming
Someone kick me out of my mind
I hate these thoughts I can’t deny
Dreaming of screaming
Someone kick me out of my mind
I hate these thoughts I can’t deny

Without my knowledge, this has become a routine, it keeps looping in my life. Only A few know what I am talking about, what the exact case is. But the whole situation has left me confused. I cant end it coz I’m having fun, at the same time the misery rather confusion I’m in, is making me think otherwise. One thing I can say for sure though, I never thought so much about anything in my entire life.

Cartman:	Uh, yes, I’ve come to return these pubes that I purchased, please?
Scott:	Uh uh, I don’t take returns!
Cartman:	Right, but you see, I didn’t realize, when I bought these pubes from you, that you were full of shit! So you can either give me back my ten dollars, or I can go tell my mom on you!
Scott:	You would actually tell your mom that you were stupid enough to pay for my pubes? Huh uh, I don’t think soho!
Cartman:	Just give me back my money…
Scott:	Buyer beware, dude!
Cartman:	Gimme my ten dollars, Scott!
Scott:	Hehey, I said no! Now get your fat little butt out of here before I kick your head in!

Well this is what my conversation with Arvind would be like, just replace pubes with SMPS. If he were here in this country right now I would have organized my own Chili Con Carnival made a pony bite off his weiner.

Pic of flowers @ Jantar Mantar, New Delhi.
Click on download on the deviantART page for the full resolution (7.1MP version) ;)

and.. theres is a limit to luck also..
and Virat’s luck has crossed that barrier. Hes one seriously lucky bastard. I am jealous.

EDIT
Virat: what happened to the days when we used to sit on our systems 24/7 and play games and do a lot of downloading?

Me n him really miss those days :D